Linger

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some things added on from yesterday:


do you remember how the other day i posted about having unsettling dreams and not saying what they were? that's because no one cares about your dreams.

but anyway, that night one of the dreams was just nothing. and then a spider, a really small one (but really distinct since it was the only thing in the dream) was crawling on my arm (now there are two things in the dream), and you know how i'm meant to have a deathly fear of spiders? well i think i still do, but i didn't freak out because i didn't exist. Anyway it bit my arm and i tried to flick it off (apparently i had two arms), but it wouldn't budge at all. and then i woke up.

well anyway, it turns out i have a bite on my left arm. it's not in the same place. (i was bitten a bit below the wrist, like, halfway down the inside of my forearm). but this bite is halfway down the outside of my forearm.

yeah. so the dream was probably trigged by something biting me. i wonder what it was.


another thing i failed to mention yesterday was getting head teacher economic's signature for dropping economics. my economics teacher was there, but they joked about it and took it well. it's not that i'm bad or don't like economics. i like the way it's relaxed. but it's probably my weakest subject (i got 12/20 for extended i was so surprised, it was eye opening at how much i didn't know about economics). so yeah, economics is a lot less forgiving that way.

it's kind of strange, balancing your ATAR with what subjects you need to take for your uni course as assumed knowledge.

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Back when I was younger, and had an imagination, and walked home from denistone station, not eastwood, i would sometimes spend time wondering how great it would be if I could "blink".

Allow me to explain that. Blink is just a spell from warcraft that teleports you a short distance, instantly. So you're leaving the train station, you see the library, you blink, and you're instantly there. That's kind of what it is.

I just spent like 10 minutes looking at absolute rubbish on youtube trying to find a video that showcases blink which doesn't suck. Unfortunately they all suck.

my brother is downloading while away from his computer and that is really annoying because youtube can't load.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BmW3Hndgp5E
49 seconds. terrible video, but if you want to see what it looks like in warcraft 3, go watch that. (turn off your sound though). Also, the player is pretty bad.

I find it funny that people have things like "blah blah productions presents...", wasting 10 seconds of the viewers time, and then they have an unedited (or sometimes attempt-edited) video captured by the trial version of FRAPS.


So anyway, I would imagine how great it could be to instantly teleport where I was looking, or be spiderman and swing my way up the hill, or just fly home. Sometimes I would follow my path with my eyes, and within around 5 seconds i would already be out of my own sight. And then I would spend the next 5 minutes walking slowly which sucked.

This afternoon I remembered that on the way home. And it really would be awesome if I could blink.


Do you want a letter of commendation? 5 silver awards to get one?

I do. And I realised that it might not be easy to get enough merit awards, because I only have about 10 and i still need 3 more silver awards. So I'm 50 short. And I'll only have 4 teachers over the next year, and it won't be easy if I even end up getting them.

What about you?

why do you want the letter of commendation?

I noticed that sometimes you only want something because it exists.

Why do I want a letter of commendation? I thought about it for a while and I don't really have a proper answer. The same reason I want to unlock that achievement in that game. Because it exists. Because I can.



Something which I'm slightly looking forward to is counterstrike: global offensive.

As you might know, I grew up playing counterstrike, kind of. I can still remember coming home from eastwood public, and just going to play counterstrike against bots before my parents came home. I think I've recounted about that before.

So anyway, global offensive (abbreviated as GO, which I think was a very very very very bad idea by whoever decided to have an acronym in the first place), is probably the biggest development to counterstrike ever. i'm ignoring source and condition zero, since they haven't really changed it that much. they were just making it prettier, and maybe adding a few doodads the maps.

So it's a big improvement for a game that started out in 2000.





























pretty big change, huh.


It's kind of like starcraft 1 to starcraft 2































It's surprisingly hard to find pictures of games on google images. decent pictures at least.

anyway, i'm wondering if my brother is better than me at counterstrike still. When we used to play (when we went to the library then internet cafe during school holidays, a long time ago), he was way better than me. he was just better, no matter what game.

but a lot of things have changed since then. i'm just good now.

I'm better at starcraft and probably RTS, real time strategy, but the thing is, it's a lot different to FPS, first person shooter.









I don't think you can see that properly. Maybe open it in a new tab. Anyway, real time strategy games have a "steeper" learning curve. I don't know why it's called steeper, because you can clearly see that the FPS one looks way steeper (although the graphs aren't to scale with eachother). It just means it's harder to learn.

It takes a longer time to learn real time strategy games because they're more complex. So by the time a player has learned pretty much all there is to know, 80% of them have dropped out.


First person shooters are simple. You learn how to buy guns. You learn how to move and shoot. You play a few games. You're done. So only 10% have dropped out.


because of this, real time strategies are more focused on knowing how the game works, and strategy. on the other hand, first person shooters are just having good reflexes, and being good with a mouse.

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I don't even know what I was trying to prove.


my brother's probably still better at FPS. I played a little bit of counterstrike in the holidays, and I really wasn't as good as I used to be back in, like, year 7-8.

probably just rusty. not as good as i used to be, but still good.


i'm just thinking to myself, what was i trying to prove. man.

i don't know. too many jellybeans or something

at least you know what i think about fps and rts games. i like the multitasking.

http://www.kongregate.com/games/IcyLime/multitask

here

go play multitask for a while if you want to waste like 2 hours of your life.

just got 174 seconds. probably should stop. one more game. 191. i forgot my record from before, but it was probably around 250. maybe i should try beat it. okay. 238. i was literally a milisecond too late. okay probably like 15 miliseconds but who's counting anyway. should probably stop now.

games like these are one of my favourites. intense games. not intense on the graphics and the gore and the whatever that other people like. but intense on the coordination.