Scandal

warning: this post is stupid. please either don't read it, skim read it, or read into it very very indepth and spend an hour trying to understand.

Before today I said that today i wouldn't play any games.

Then I didn't play any games (until around 11ish)

before Then I did a lot of 4u mechanics and then I did all of the past 3u HSC binomial questions from 1992.

I think I'm ok at those things now. Should be all set for maths now, just going to past paper the days before. I should probably check the HSC time table to figure out how many days I have.
wow omg theres 5 days between english and maths. I thought it would only be like 2 or 3 or something. I'm just going to not do any maths now.

so now it's english english break maths maths break latin break chem ext latin. that's actually like, perfect.

Why am I studying I should be playing games

Okok new play (you're probably tired of reading this but I need to write it down somewhere and I guess it's true I could use notepad or a word doc but shut up)

Friday:
-go through the remainder of ext latin seen translation - 30 mins? (horace is 80 lines as opposed to juvenal 300+)
-finish chem notes - hour or two
-latin focus area/author summaries - hour max
-beat ruse at dota (it's funny how to me, winning sc2 depends on how good I am [compared to my opponent], winning dota2 depends on how not-bad my team is [compared to how bad their team is])


You know, gangnam style isn't that good of a song. just the video is freaking genius.

Is there a pop song that can have more than 6 layers to it at one point? Voice, harmonising voice, 1-2 instruments playing repeated riffs or chords, bass, simple beats. more often than not the vocals are the only melody

I guess the simplicity makes it catchy. and the fact that there's only one melody makes it fun to sing. but i always get disappointed when i can tell autotune.

My favourite part of listening to something is when I can hear a new layer that I didn't notice before. I really want to go on a stella rant and tell you how unbelievably ingenious and i don't even understand how you can compose such magic and keep it up for 36 minutes i feel like it's the musical equivalent of the freaken haber process.

i decided sigh it's only 12 too early to sleep better bite the bullet and go finish up chem notes so i went and did that and i was so sick of chemistry as soon as i started and one of the realisations i made earlier was that i like latin and maths so much because it's not about committing large chunks of information to memory, it's about developing ability and applying it. Latin and math are both games.

At the start it's pretty simple. Addition, multiplication.
Main clause - 3 word sentence - Nominative Accusative Verb - Scintilla cenam parat (scintilla prepares dinner, the accusative has the m on the end, "dinner prepares scintilla" would be "cena Scintillam parat").

And then more rules are added. More concepts are added. Algebraic numbers. J is now a number. It's my favourite number, by the way.
There are more cases than nominative and accusative. vocative, genetive, dative, ablative. These cases all have their own endings. Scintilla puellae puero parat. Scintilla prepares dinner for the girl (dative, translate as "to or for" the noun, most of the time it's with a concept of giving) (the dative ending is "ae", unlike the accusative which is "am").

once you start a lesson you can't stop

And then more rules are added. More concepts. Factorisation.
Turns out there are more types of nouns than just feminine. So those endings you learned before:
Nom - puella
Voc - puella
Acc - puellam
Gen - puellae
Dat - puellae
Abl - puella except it's actually puellā
They only apply to half of the nouns now. We also have masculine nouns. You need to learn these.
Nom - dominus
Acc - dominum
Gen - domini
Dat - domino
Abl - domino
By the way, I actually lied. I need to teach you about declensions now. The 1st declension has the above endings. They are all feminine except for some exceptions which you have to learn such as nauta (sailor) and poeta (poet). The masculine nouns are actually part of the second declension which is probably not all masculine but daniel doesn't know the exceptions for sure, is bellum one? by the way bellum is actually neither masculine or feminine, it's neuter. So that means we have to split up the second declension into two columns
.............Masculine.........Neuter
Nom - dominus.............bellum
Acc - dominum..............bellum
Gen - domini.................belli
Dat - domino................bello
Abl - domino................bello

Also I should mention that there are plural cases of the verb, so puellae (means "girls") would be nom.pl. of puella. Notice how it's the same as dative singular and genetive singular. Notice how this means you can get very confused if you are given "puellae" because you don't know what case it is and you have to determine it by context of the passage you are given to translate. Anyway, now the second declension is split into 4 columns. Also, go back and split the first declension table into two columns.
singlular..Masculine.........Neuter......plural....masculine........neuter
Nom - dominus.............bellum ...................domini............bella
Acc - dominum..............bellum...................dominos..........bella
Gen - domini.................belli.......................dominorum......bellorum
Dat - domino................bello.......................dominis...........bellis
Abl - domino................bello.......................dominis...........bellis 

Did you notice that bella (second declension neuter nominative plural or second declension neuter nominiative accusative) is the same ending as puella (first declension feminine nominative singular) and puellā (first declension feminine ablative singular)? Enjoy getting confused in exams!
by the start of senior school we're going to go through 4 more declensions!!!! yay!!! Please don't drop latin. ^^ ~

AND THEN MORE RULES AND CONCEPTS ARE ADDED. HERE, HAVE A CALCULUS.
so now we can talk about verbs. "parat" was the verb from before, meaning he/she/it prepares. There are 6 ways in which we can express verbs (just like how there are 6 cases!!)
paro - i prepare
paras - you (singular) prepare
parat - he/she/it prepares
paramus - we prepare
paratis - you (plural) prepare
parant - they prepare
do you remember how there were declensions for different nouns? There's a similar thing for verbs called conjugations. Notice how the first conjugation has a stem of a (as, at, amus, atis, ant). There is a second conjugation which it's 3:15 and i don't have time to talk about. there are 4 conjugations in total.

oh i should tell you about the types of moods. 
There is the indicative which is factual (he prepares, i want sleep, they are silly).
There is the infinitive which is "to-something" (to prepare, to want, i want to sleep tomorrow, to be silly) (parare, monere, regere, audire)
There is the imperative which is a command (prepare yourselves! sleep tomorrow! be silly!) (singular - pare! plural - parate!)
Then there is the subjunctive which would actually take me over an hour to explain it's a massive batstorm which took us idk probably 5 weeks to learn and even after those 5 weeks we were still confused.

And there are also tenses. So for those 6 words above (paro, paras, parat, paramus, paratis, parant), that's the present tense. There's also a perfect tense. an imperfect tense. a future tense. a pluperfect tense. All 4 conjugations have this. Enjoy.

And there are also these things called participles. So if we take the word "swim". Present participle is "swimming". parans = preparing. 
But there's also perfect (past tense) passive (i'll talk about that in a second) participles. paratus (note, perfect passive participles count as adjectives so they have 100 different endings depending on the case of the noun that they agree with)

i went to write this post because it was 1:40 and i didn't want to sleep. 

Anyway, so we have active (scintilla prepares dinner). the passive is dinner is prepared (by scintilla). So you know all of those conjugations and tenses of verbs from before? times them by two. 

And we have these things called deponents which screw the rules because they look passive but you translate them as active, and then we have these things called semi-deponents which do that half the time and !!@$#%^&^)((^*&%$#@!~%

AND THEN WE HAVE DEFECTIVE VERBS WHICH SCREW ALL THE RULES AND THESE THINGS CALLED GERUNDS AND GERUNDIVES WHICH MAKE NO SENSE (ACTUALLY THEY MAKE PERFECT SENSE BUT CONFUSED MY CLASS FOR A LONG LONG TIME)

MOVING ON FROM !@#$ING VERBS

deinde postquam, plures leges additi(is this meant to be addites harvard) sunt. hi. you can square root negative numbers now. and graph them.
remember how scintilla prepares dinner? nom acc verb? there are 100 different other grammatical constructions you need to know about.


i am too tired for this.

then more rules are added.

so i don't expect you to read all of that properly, looks like i pulled a brendan and ranted on about something only harvard would understand, all of these big words like "deponent". By the way did you know that deponent is an english word that's used as a grammatical term, it's derived from the latin word "depono" which means "i place down" coming from the word "pono - i place" with the prefix "de" which means "down" or "about" when it's an adverb, but when it's a suffix it just means down. 

oh if only i bothered to talk to you about gerundives, i could tell you about how "amanda" literally means "to be loved" and "miranda" literally means "to be admired" (if i was a girl that would be my name) and referendum literally means "to be referred" and agenda literally means "to be driven/conducted/done"


and then more rules are added


and yeah, that's why i like latin and maths. because you do that. not in english or chem. 


anyway, so after friday, i'm pretty much pre-prepared my few-days-before studying so all i need to do then is english. i'm going to study english the traditional way. memorise essays. write them down. 

what a nice subject.

pop is a nice genre of music.

(i actually have nothing against it, it's nice but easy to get sick of)



and anyway, i actually wanted to go on a stella rant but it looks like i shouldn't because i already latin ranted. can we fit two rants into one post? 


i think we can, it's only 3:42

Note: please don't read the rest of the post unless you want to click on the link and listen to the song (and then go back and listen to it again because what i am talking about doesn't make sense). 
There is nothing to be gained but confusion.

ok so one of the most intricate parts of the song is the transition from that part that doesn't have a name to that other part that doesn't have a name [because the song doesn't have any verses, bridges, choruses (if you go back to the 2nd declension masculine table you'll notice that Nominative Singular = dominus and Nominative Plural = Domini. Therefore, Nominative Singular = octopus/syllabus and Nominative Plural = octopi/syllabi)]

So anyway this transition i'm talking about starts at 20:55 (i'm not even going to bother linking the song). And it's this eerie/surreal/sharp/crystalised melody played on some kind of bell instrument like some kind of xylophone idk, and in the background there is the theme from the previous part of the song, softly fading in and out, but that theme part crescendos and eventually stops fading at all, it overwhelms that little crystalised melody. I am not good at describing things. 

pls just listen to it (i promise i'll listen to the next thing you post brendan even if it's japanese)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=ByD5ORT6Mcw#t=1253s

The thing that i think is especially brilliant about this part is that if you listen really really really really really really (and i mean you have to be listening super closely), there is a piano playing seemingly dissonant and random notes while the above is going on. (it seems dissonant and random because it is)
It's almost like the bells-melody creates a mood as if you've been dropped in some random city you've never been before and you're lost and wandering and wondering wtf is going on.
And then there's a certain familiarity to the city, it feels kind of like home, like the ocean tide lapping away which is represented by the previous theme in the background.
but then there's that dissonant piano part there. something is wrong. something about this reality is broken or faulty. and then everything implodes and finally it's just that piano remaining playing those random notes. and you're trapped in the void and all the lights are off.

eventually you come to the realisation that you're not in the void, you're actually at home and the lights aren't off, you're just taking a nap, and this realisation builds up until at 21:17 you open your eyes and realise that you really are at home. your best friend is there. you have no idea why, but it's ok. it's good to be back. i missed this place.



the moral of the story is, we all interpret things differently. on top of that, i am not good at telling stories. and that's why i need to write a note at the top of this post to tell you not to read it.

the funny thing is, the thing that made me think about the layering of music was listening to blue sky black death last night and finding another layer that i didn't notice in the previous 290 plays. it was just something as small as a clash, clash, clash, but that was enough to make me think oh hey, i didn't notice this before. 



brendan, this entire post is for you


next time when it's 1:40, i'm just going to go to sleep.




i remember what this post was meant to be about, now. it was meant to be about health. and how feeling really weak and headache and unable to type the first 10 words correctly unless i go halfspeed on 10fastfingers, and typing 100fastengers instead of 10fastfingers and things like that. and maybe i should go faint, and all of this is because i should eat properly maybe sleep properly (probably don't need that) but most importantly go outside more because i literally spend the entire day sititng here it's not good for me, i went outside and flailed around for a few seconds after i realised i really need to go outside and then my heart was beating really fast as if i had just run a marathon, and i could hear my heartbeat magnified like when your ears hear internally instead of externally if that ever happens to you

oh well i guess that post is for later



wow andy you're right, the birds start at 4:32