Don't Panic

so earlier on 7/5/2013 i wrote about some stuff about my current thoughts about uni and about life and about the nature of existence and how I feel about my own identity and how I have changed over the past few years, and there were a lot of interesting and positive things in there that I won't write again.

Then I saved it as a draft because I didn't feel like posting it, and just then I wanted to continue it a bit by sharing this link:

http://www.treehugger.com/endangered-species/clouded-leopards-declared-extinct-taiwan.html

and then I pressed control z or something and the whole post disappeared, and I can't get it back.



But that's life., and ...
I just want to take this moment to appreciate the things that we remember, that never happened at all.



One day we will look back and say "back in the day, when I grew up here, birds used to live here. All sorts of birds, in the mornings I would see galahs and cockatoos along the road, and in the afternoon the rainbow lorikeets would gather on the railing at the back. Sometimes we even saw kookaburras, and just like they said in the myths, they did laugh as if they were happy, in a politically correct manner, and they actually did perch on the old gum trees. Well, I guess those were cut down a couple of decades ago. But once, they used to rise high up and cover the house in shade with the canopy.

There were also mynahs and magpies, I don't think they were crows, and sometimes the mynahs would team up and fight a magpie, or maybe they were crows. I don't know. Most people didn't like those birds because they were annoying, but if they were still here with us today, I bet they would be willing to pay much for an untouched parrot.

They would wish there was anything for them to listen to as they woke, instead of the trains not fluttering in the distance


I often put injokes here, and some of the time, they are injokes that no one except me will actually understand. Yes...I have injokes with myself. I usually get rid of the ones that really make no sense, though.

And sometimes I get dejavu like now.


In a way, I don't mind losing everything, because it allowed me to reminisce about the past from the future.

At the cost of the present, which I guess I will just forget after a day or two. At least I can still remember it now.

One of the things was writing about 1.2k words of my management report (out of 2.5k) in 1 hour and 6 minutes, and how don't worry about what I said, I enjoy the course quite a bit.

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