To The Moon

For River

as soon as I find something to learn at those times where nothing is doing, I have Rocksmith for that, so I guess there is no need for the piano anymore.


And the soundtrack on steam isn't activated unless you buy the game, so now I have to do that as well. Thanks a lot, Harvard. Thanks. For Wasting Light, 20/4/11, as well.



I thought it would be a good idea if someone just wrote a plan narrative that was only happy. But that would get boring of course.

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unless you scattered the sad-pasts that lead to the happy-presents of characters in the story, and then the moral of the story becomes one of gratitude.

or something

something

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Rocksmith arrived just in time for Christmas, and it's awesome. Like, it's actually incredible. For someone who can play, but lacks any reason to play, there is this. I don't know if it's that good as a tool for learning guitar from scratch, but it's the greatest for reviving a lost passion.

There is Foo Fighters DLC (downloadable content) but that costs $14 for 5 songs. I looked at someone playing that DLC on youtube and I was like what, that's different to how I play it and they'll penalise me for playing the songs in the way that I already know them. So, probably not going to get that. Unless they release a second pack.

$14 for 5 songs seems like a lot, but when you consider that with how much it costs getting a real-life lesson, it would cost like $100 to learn all 5 songs in lessons. Well, I've never had guitar lessons but I'm assuming similarity to piano.

But I'm not using Rocksmith as a learning tool, but a game instead, so $14 is too much for me.


Harvard you have to get this one day, same to Mark, William, if you ever read this.


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I actually had a point to writing this post, 15 mins ago but now I forgot it. Happy holidays, but that wasn't it.


I guess I'm once again lacking a forward direction in my life, but I've been able to come to terms with that pretty quickly. I think I'm quite good at accepting what is reality. Maybe I've never really had anything significant to deny. 

Maybe not. This year, at least.


I don't think I'll get around to summarising this year. And that's okay.

I'll forget things. Things that mattered so much but lasted so briefly. But that's okay.

Shorter durations are more easily forgotten


Highschool gave me everything I needed, noting the difference between wants and needs. I think I've said this before, actually. And I'll remember this fact even if I forget the details.




I am still thinking about that part where the program became sentient in \to the moon\. "Doctor... is this what I really am?"

That little 2 minute part of the game conveyed a message about human/robot ethics, stronger than entire mod A.

Hell, that one line conveyed a stronger message.

Not saying blade runner sucked, i liked it.

but all i recall about it is that it was sad when roy died, and "who is really the bad guy?"


someone tell year 11 to use To the Moon for conflicting perspectives

Because perspectives conflict.


Although sadly no techniques.



I still haven't looked at yearbook and I don't plan to for a long time. I'm still disappointed at how my profile actually reflects NOTHING of who I actually am today. At least I think it doesn't, I haven't actually read it since submission.

And I lol'd because typing this out brought out the realisation that it's a quarter of a page and I'm going to be looking at the pages that aren't me.

But I just want forgetting and this is method.


I was considering how un-completely-known I am to actually everyone in this world, well, except that one time, but that was one time and I'm sure it's been forget.

And I concluded that ... this is all very silly and unexplain-able.

ontological rootedness?

onto \ logical \
?

why am i here

Why do
my words
always lose their meaning
?


it's nearing 6 and i always feel a sense of "this is awesome" when, while i'm going to sleep, light slips through the windows like beams of moonlight

that would have been better if there wasn't repetition of light in the sentence. i actually less-consciously typed out
"...through the windows light beams of moonlight"