Daniel's Shadow: 96 - Handlebars

Year 7 and 8 were kind of the same. Year 7 was really daunting, not belonging. Year 8 was kind of like year 7 take two. It was the same. I don't remember much about it except for that. Did it even happen? Where was it, in the school? A display of new students, in photographs. For some reason I noticed it today. A picture of that year's intake, just arriving - or arrived.

Year9 was the year when things started to change. It was pretty cool. I started listening to music on purpose. It was a slow start. My first 4 songs were The Pretender, Everlong, Still Alive, and this. It stayed like that for a while. Naturally, when your entire library consists of 4 songs you get tired of them pretty quickly.

Everlong was the first to go. Changed its rating to 4 stars. This doesn't even sound good, I thought to myself. Next was Still Alive. I don't like this song at all. And then Handlebars. Sorry brendan, sorry mark, I really hate this song. Remarkably, nothing like that happened to The Pretender, or ever has.

When I realised that FF was the best, on my hunt for new songs, I eventually accidentally listened to Everlong again, and it was alright.

On my hunt for songs for my "sc2" playlist, which consists of songs from everywhere, hopefully recognisable, for the viewers (when I watch a stream, if it's endless kpop or rock that is not for me, I get tired of it and either mute the stream or stop watching). On my hunt for songs I found Still Alive and added it to the playlist.

Today I chanced upon Handlebars again. It brings back Year9. Good times.

I've probably recounted the other things year9 here enough times so I won't do it again.

At the end of year 10 my life began to go backwards. Year 11 was a journey back to Year9 through year 10. The beginning of year 11.5 was the beginning of year 10, where everything ended and everything else began. Everything began and everything else ended.

At some point I reached Year9. The end of Year9 where everything was, confused, right, didn't know. Today I reached the heart of Year9. In a few months I'll reach the beginning of Year9, when everything began to belong.

I don't know what happens after that. I don't know if year 7 and 8 even happened. Then I forgot. Yet I remember the picture: the new students. With their luggage? It seems unlikely. Maybe year 7 and 8 never happened at all, and it's actually the end of everything that everything in December.

Maybe the planet ends in a holocaust. in a holocaust. in a holocaust.

What are my aspirations after school? I don't know. I don't know some of it.

I'm going to go to usyd because it's a family tradition. I'm going to study some course, maybe a double degree, that isn't medicine or law or arts or history or anything else that sucks. With my extra free time I'm going to become decent at starcraft2 Heart of the Swarm. I'm going to start coaching, first for free, but then charge money if I get enough demand. I'm going to get a part time job at Maccas and eat unhealthy food a lot, and then lose weight anyway. I'll probably go travelling around Australia to attend LANs.

This is why I've been working exceptionally not hard. They mean nothing to me but empty pride. And the fact that I am aware that the pride is empty makes them worth less than nothing to me.

I got chem back with 22. I wasn't surprised. I'm pretty good at predicting test results. Except for english. I get 11 for essays which I thought I did well in, and naturally hate it relative to other subjects because of that unpredictability. I like getting the mark that I feel I expect. I like getting 22 for chem.

I like the fact that if I didn't retard up the calculations, I would have got 26. Easy prac. 5.33mL of sodium thiosulfate was used. Instead of looking at the concentration of solution to figure out how many moles were used, I decided that 5.33mL meant 5.33g and proceeded to do molar calculations which took more time than the calculations that you did. I knew something was wrong with taking it as 5.33g, but I didn't have time to figure out what I was meant to do. When I got 1.7k ppm and one of the next questions said to write down 10ppm minus the ppm you calculated to calculate the BOD, I thought "sigh".

So I'm happy with 22. Calculations are usually my not weakpoint. I screwed up the test because I screwed up the calculations, and I'm not actually bad at chem, I'm just stupid.

I don't like brendan not getting 27+ for chem. Brendan not getting top 20 marks is the reason why I don't like the entire test system. If you work hard and know everything, and understand everything, you deserve the mark.