Ohka

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The emblem depicts one's rising & progress, before a descent and receding towards the place of one's origin, before rising yet again. This means that though one may make great progress, they do not forget those that began with them.


Back in the day I think people were worried about me because I had more issues than most people and kept them to myself. I guess the worry wasn't misguided. I think I'm still a bit like that, but it's okay. I don't think I would change much if I could go back.

Blogging was a nice way of releasing these issues. I could impose my state of being onto otherwise meaningless objects and experiences. It's best not to say hurtful things or make long lasting decisions when you're angry. But when you intend to capture emotion or some inspiration, you will lose it if you wait. Sometimes I was able to write in time, sometimes I waited and lost the memory. It's fine either way. By the time you've lost the inspiration, you're okay with it because it doesn't matter to you anymore. It only matters at the time.

Iced Trees, Dandelion and Happy Apple were all very supportive of me, even though I don't think I was very responsive to it. You gave me help that I didn't ask for or reciprocate. You made a difference, and I remember it.