153 - Rerun

Everything I've ever known has been a lie. Not everything.

I've been thinking about it here for a while, as in 20 minutes, and my family hasn't been a lie. Even though we aren't really that family-like. Home hasn't been a lie. It's always been there. I guess there are other things that I have at the moment as well, but maybe in a couple of years they will become nothing too.

Every lesson learned in school. Actually, maybe not every lesson. I can't think of any at the moment, but I'm sure that there was some point in my 13 years of schooling where I've learned something worthwhile.

Every pet. Did you know animals don't have souls? Yep. What happens when they die? Dunno, they probably just decompose or something. Apparently animals might have spiritual experiences too. (My cat from 2001 probably had more experiences than I have. I haven't.)
But yeah, no souls. Sorry animals. We're just better than you, haha. Bad luck that you didn't evolve to be as intelligent. Also we're going to use you for food, clothing, and other accessories. Sorry, yo.

Annyeong haseyo!
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Every game. Maybe not StarCraft. I remember my brother saying "can you imagine yourself playing KoL when you're 17?". "Yes", I told him.

Nope. All that time to nothing.

No regrets, though.


I suppose music hasn't been a lie. Probably because its integrity is determined by me, not other people.



Anyway I originally was going to write this post because I was thinking if someone asked me "are you a creative person?" I would respond "no, my upbringing and education has sapped away all of my creativity." and they would be like "perfect, let's hire this guy"

Because in school they say shit like "nah, her creativity is worth 20, his is worth 17". You've heard it all before.

Then I went back and thought of the creative things that I've done in school.


I remembered the entire class had to come up with an invention. Primary school. Not sure what year. It was either year 1 or 3. Maybe 2, actually. But more likely 1 or 3.

Anyway, I can't remember other peoples, but mine was a wind detector. Most baller invention ever.

It was a tissue box with one of the sides open. And there was a circiut with lightbulb on it. And where the box opened, there was the lid from baked bean cans/canned fish cans. Those metal things that you have to pull, y'know.

And the circuit wasn't complete, you had to push the metal lid so it touched the other piece of metal before the lightbulb went on. So you hold out the tissue box, wind blows and it pushes the metal lid, and lightbulb turns on.

Baller or what?

I remember saying something like oh my dad helped with the wiring. To be honest, I'm pretty sure I had no !@#$ing idea how electricity worked back then. He probably said "oh try something with this lightbulb circuit, look it turns off and on" and i have no idea where the idea of a "wind detector" came from, i don't know why i didn't just say it was a !@#$ing torch instead and you turn it on by pressing it.

But yeah. Wind detector. We don't think of that shit anymore, do we?

I used to think "maybe I haven't been growing more uncreative, maybe there are just higher expectations now". Today I realised that I've just been growing more uncreative.

!@#$, a wind detector. I'm trying to think of inventions now. The best I can come up with is drum sticks with some kind of padding, so you can drum on the table without making a lot of noise and having people look at you and think "!@#$ing !@tard"

I thought I did pretty average at the lan, turns out it was 7/8th. Which is pretty average considering some people didnt show up.

ACL tomorrow/sunday UNSW. I'm playing in the open bracket. Some are saying it's like the MLG of Australia. It is, actually. That's pretty awesome.