Runaway - 8

enjoy grammar lack of i sometimes do this sorry

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This was one of the earlier songs tonight
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3dC4bHlNCr4
and i was like omg i know this song and i always get excited when i know a song because i don't even variety music

i appreciate songs more when i hear them in places that aren't my computer


anyway about an hour ago i made a spontaneous decision to go to schoolies tomorrow

gotta pack etc probs going to forget everything but it doesnt even matter as long as i bring my ipod



my quote for tonight "hope is a strong weapon
often misguided"

context of subtly telling brendan yes yes you are distracting me from all the packing i mean blogging but its ok i stay up until 4 naturally anyway


tonight was pretty underwhelming but i liked the food


its only been a week since holidays. feels like so much longer.

ohh  i can bring my guitar forgot all about it

anyway ive been playing games all day but its not as fun because i know that i'm not foregoing study in favour of gaming. it's only fun when you're meant to be studying.

and i haven't been keeping as healthy as i would like, maybe when i wake up at 9 when i don't feel like playing games and no one else is on i can go outside


oh and i don't know who wrote my placecard but thank you so much i was happy reading it you have nice writing

Day 8
Got my 8 hours. Was pleased that I actually woke up naturally after 4.5, but went back to sleep. About an hour ago I made the spontaneous decision to go to schoolies from tomorrow (Saturday) to Tuesday, and there’s probably no reason to biphasic sleep during this period because being the only one awake is only fun if you have a computer. So just going to natural sleep it for Day9 to 12. Might ruin the transition period, but seriously it doesn’t feel like there was even a transition period. I just jumped straight into biphasic sleep and everything was fine.

Summary: 8 hours + 0 hours

when i don't know like all of the songs but apparently everyone knows them i'm always like "oh, okay"
i think i think that everyone has their own little niche of music but apparently mainstream is still mainstream but i'm not very good at being a body of water. although you can argue that 66% of the human body is hey wait what the hell am i talking about


some people channel their music-joy through dance. i am not one of those people. i channel it through actually playing it if possible, or otherwise keeping the beat.

this might sound a bit weird/retarded but it works for me in real life okay you dont understand / i use my chest as a percussion instrument. i use my thumb or 2345 fingers combined for strong beats and 234 for weak ones and this doesn't make any sense i'm goign to stop digging a hole

and there is also air drumming which i'm pretty bad at i can't keep up even though i'm not actually playing anything, but i'm not even air drummin right because i try to play the kick with one of the drum sticks instead of my foot


anyway i should probs go pack now, i am actually really looking forward to sleeping in a sleeping back on a couch or the floor or something, sleeping in a bed is boring, just like how sleeping for 8 hours once a day is boring

i am not biphasic sleeping for the extra 2 hours, i'm doing it because it's fun


a thing i have noticed about myself is that i find it easier to appreciate things that the majority of other people don't appreciate, easier to like music that the majority of other people don't know, easier to enjoy things that the majority of other people don't do.

maybe it's something to do with the notion of "special" - that word is special/holds sentimental value with me, maybe it's my favourite word,
maybe i should make it clear that it's the colour orange that i like, and i like oranges the fruit because they are coloured orange, not because they are oranges.

it's strange how out-of-the-blue things that define me have popped up. 1037 and orange were completely random, but definite, and i need to go looking for four leaf clovers sometime
and what am i even talking about i am not an easy person to understand

maybe brendan can relate when i share the tf2 thing meet the pyro
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WUhOnX8qt3I
where you wonder what i'm thinking of, what complex or deep labyrinths, and then i'm just thinking about rainbows and lollipops

why am i still here gotta pack



hsc is over maybe some people should start using this blog thing again


i think i am completely free of any form of hate. i can't think of anyone in real life that i don't like. "what about all of those people who you actually don't know at all and have never spoken a word to" well, the connection of school is enough to swing it slightly to the like-side of the scale.

it's sad, but i don't feel sad. i don't think i feel anything anymore, i can't remember exactly when i lost the ability to have feelings (on a regular basis [sometimes there are feelings but these times are few and far between]) but if i look back at posts i can probably find it.