191 - Tomorrow

tomorrow could be so great

2 period day today. If only every day was like that. I realised that even though I'm 11 units, I still do just as much work as people who do more than 11 because they do ez subjects. All of this time I've been thinking "I need more leisure time even though I study a couple of hours a week", it's been justified.

Maybe not in the light of those who tutor and do work at home


This morning I had a nightmare, first one in a while, a very long while, and it's about time. Because in my life I have no challenges, no fears. Everything's too easy. Everything's too predictable.

so the fear from the nightmare was a nice break from that.

this nightmare was my first ever lucid dream i think, if that's the one where you realise you are in a dream. Once I realised it was, the nightmare became more of a horror comedy. it was a lot more funny that it should be. i want a real nightmare now.


and my body, because i think my body clock is one of the most reliable body clocks in the world, woke me up at 5:50 or so, in preparation for morning class. except i didn't have that today. I think i'm hydrogen. i got everything but mass. or maybe just an electron.

once i realised i was nightmaring, i think i was going to call the dream "wolfenstein" or something like that, because it undertoned frankenstein a bit (my nightmare subconscious told me this even though it wasn't evident in the dream itself), but then wolfenstein was some game i played a bit a long long time ago which i recall was very fun except we had terrible internet and i didn't have my own computer. wolf because there was a wolf in it and stuff.



essay was okay. i thought i missed a point afterwards but it turns out i didn't. maybe it did, but all good, i finished. a bit over 1k is a good amount of words for me, even with cold arms.

i woke up at about 6 that morning, giving me enough time to run through the essay in my head. but 5 mins before the exam, i wasn't able to remember anything. i was having trouble remembering the introduction.
when i say remember, it's because i don't deliberately try to memorise. i just read through my essay, understand the structure of sentences and the whole thing, and usually that's enough to let me remember it.

and then i remembered it pretty well, only had one mind blank the whole exam and that was on the first paragraph, was about a minute worth.

i think it wasnt too bad considering how much i didn't prepare for it. this module is the one that makes the most sense to me. probably because they make it clear what you're meant to be arguing and don't ask random questions just to make english a coin flip