Resolve

this week it was something like "Jesus said that everyone is sick and he is the healer, what do you think about this?"

And I said something and they said something and then i said "oh, you meant physically sick"

and something else happened and he looked at me and told me i looked a bit sick and i know i did but he didn't press it. I wrote that everyone is sick, but it's up to ourselves to be healed.


There's so many things I haven't said.



Every morning my brother wakes up at 7:35, quickly (quickly) gets dressed and goes to the car and we leave around 7:40. On monday he drove really fast. On tuesday or maybe it was wednesday he drove the whole way while drinking an up and go. And yesterday and today he drove with his right hand only, except for big left turns. I don't know why.

He drives up to 75 in 50 zones, and i think the concept of driving is a lot more exciting when you're in the front seat. On monday I was sitting on the back seat which might be why I thought he was driving fast; it didn't seem as scary at the front seat. He's a really good driver, I think. Maybe it was from when we used to play need for speed. This one time his friends came over and commented that the game was harder than driving in real life. If that's true I think i'll make a pretty good driver.

Sometimes we can go without talking at all. it's not that he's concentrating on driving or hates me or anything. maybe you are like this to your siblings as well, and you understand. it's either that or you don't at all.

This morning there were about 50 cockatoos about 20 seconds after we left home. They were in the middle of the road. and they didn't move at all. they had no fear. One even flew from the side of the road to join the rest of them in front of our car, which was now moving around 5 km/h. I think that was happy. I couldn't really see directly in front of the car because I wasn't sitting upright but I'm assuming none of them ... died.


Well anyway, I'm not engaged in class, or anything, anymore. Especially the englishes. I was so sure that I wouldn't "burn out" in 11 or 12.

I haven't played piano in about 2 weeks as well, which is going to be a problem when I can't even play the song at 1/2 speed.

My amp is gathering dust. I haven't played plugged in for a long time. I'm not a guitarist. I don't play with volume at 10. When someone tells me to play something, I don't know what to play. I don't even recognise the songs that all the other guitarists know. They don't know any songs that I play. I don't play the guitar. I play foo fighters. I've know how to play a lot of their songs. One day I'll make a playlist and play along for an hour. I don't play the guitar. I just play to a song while listening to it.




I think this might be the third or fourth time I've used this song. it's a nice song.