OH NO

i'm always so nice to people online. I always say "glhf!!!!" instead of "gl hf" or "glgl" or nothing at all. it usually gets a not negative response, if any. sometimes they talk back with their own exclamation marks or smiley faces.

and it's nice to know that some people know it's only a game. You don't need to take it so seriously. You don't need to feel sad or angry about a game. It doesn't matter and shouldn't affect you at all. It's only a game, it isn't a reflection of you, but you can still learn about yourself from playing. They're playing for fun and mastery, and aiming to accomplish more than cheesing wins, they are aiming to explore the other aspects of the game, other than the win lose ratio.


*cheesing is like unorthodox play. like if you rush and make a normally 20 minute game finish in 7, or putting cannons inside their base instead of building an army. cheesing is easier to do and a waste of time.

it's nice to know that some strangers are like that. maybe it's because i'm nice to them with the exclamation marks.

strangers that i sometimes in real life are nice as well. i don't even know names, but it's still nice. maybe it's because i'm nicer to them.


i have a few minutes worth of maths homework and probably english extension homework as well and i'm probably going to not do it.



do you remember, my answer - persevere - for "how do you do well in life?". before that I was going to write "don't give up hope"

but i didn't write that down


sometimes i spend some time wondering what's going to happen to me. if i could wake up a few years in the future, where would i be?

i like to think that there's a reason i'm here, some purpose.

maybe i've already fulfilled that purpose



and this next part is a bit crazy and might not make sense but:
you can't really understand someone unless you live through their entire life.
and i was wondering for a second, what if i'm not me? what if i'm a psychologist in the future, with the appropriate tech, living through daniel's life to try to understand him better?

it would be crazy to live through my entire life, go to a psychologist one day, get put into this memory machine, and the next moment i'm the psychologist and oh this is going nowhere ignore everything you just read